Tuesday, May 3, 2016

List of Sites For Writing Prompts

http://www.dailywritingtips.com/writing-prompts-101/ ("What is a writing prompt?" +links to prompts)
http://thinkwritten.com/365-creative-writing-prompts/
http://www.dailyteachingtools.com/journal-writing-prompts.html (this looks a little old school, but some of the prompts are interesting)
http://creativewritingprompts.com/ (mouse over the numbers)
http://visualprompts.weebly.com/

Why I Write

I'm gonna be completely honest here.

I started writing because I was playing World of Warcraft and some people I had just met asked if I wanted to roleplay with them-- which is sort of like co-writing a constant, on-going story until your character is dead. I found it intriguing and I was awful at first; I was just 11. I had no idea how it worked. But I roleplayed on and off until very recently-- until November of 2015. I'd been roleplaying for about six years, though closer to five if you take out the breaks from roleplaying that I took.

Now, I write simply because I enjoy it. It helps me understand myself, It helps me vent. It helps me sort out my feelings before I talk about them with other people. It's a creative outlet that I need, like painting or drawing, but writing is more from the heart than visual art, for me.

I write to show love. I'm a very physical person, meaning I show love through affection, and I don't like to touch or be touched unless I am comfortable with the person. I am also very verbal; I like to tell people they're appreciated. While I think you should show your love, you should also say it. It's nice to get that verbal confirmation that you matter. That you're cared for. That you're missed. For me, simply being shown isn't enough. I need to be told.

I write because there are some thoughts I can't share with others. Like mean thoughts. Thoughts that I KNOW are irrational. Thoughts that I don't want to be real, so I don't say it to someone. Thoughts that can't be heard by others, because my notebook won't tell my secrets.

I write to understand. I write to be understood. I write to love. I write to be loved. I write to express. I write to tell secrets. I write so that others can read my work and think, "She wrote what I was thinking."
I write because it is art.

Friday, April 29, 2016

Final E-mail

Dear Reader,

I apologize for the generic e-mail. Next Thursday, May the 4th, I graduate from high school. After that, I will be working a majority of the time, visiting France in June, and then moving out of my parents' home in the late summer. I will be fairly busy so I don't want to get your hopes up. I'm not sure how often I'll be able to e-mail, if at all. You can e-mail me regardless, and I will respond whenever possible. But don't expect a response super soon.

Your friend, Caitlyn Kittrell

Scavenger Hunt

The top left picture is a picture of the park from a sidewalk near Parkview. I've always loved the park, and I used to visit Fassnight on the reg.
The one below it is a picture of angel rays, taken at Nathaniel Green park. ... I really love parks.
The one to the right of the angel rays is the stone stairs near Parkview and Fassnight. This is my "weird angle."
The one above it is a fountain. I just thought it was cute.
The one to the right of the fountain is a picture of myself and Zach. Zach is my best friend and has become one of the most important people in my life. I adore him and he constantly motivates to me to be a better version of myself. I've been tempted to make a blog post about him for a while.
The picture of the pile of rocks is my cat's grave marker. She passed away on March 31st. I like this picture because there's a heart-shaped rock on the top.
The last three pictures are just pictures that I took and enjoy looking at.

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

Visit From MSU Exchange Students

Liam and I were in a group with Ren and Zhenzhen (pronounced Jingjing).
I forgot how to write my adjective in pinyin, but my adjective was "stressed."
We talked about what American high school was like (the classes and how credits work) and we asked them a little bit about college. Both of us added them on WeChat!
We took them to the cafeteria, the foreign language hallway, the gymnasium, a couple of art rooms, and a couple of science rooms. They took a lot of pictures!
I felt like it was a very fun class period. It was a lot of fun to teach people about stuff that was mundane to us, because people don't really consider that things that are mundane to them are extraordinary to others. I hope it was enlightening and educational for them!

Thursday, March 31, 2016

Wife Swap Response

I feel like the whole Wife Swap ordeal was more difficult for Maryanne. I would not have been able to put up with Scott disrespecting me; I could have handled Maryanne's children disrespecting me, because that behavior is more easily changed than a grown man's behavior, but I grew up in the type of household where, if the woman is a stay-at-home mother, she took care of the cooking and cleaning, and the husband works full-time and does odd jobs around the house, like fixing the plumbing or building things.

That's not how I want to live though. I want to have kids but I also want my own career. With my ideal career, I will be able to have a flexible schedule, so that I can build it around my children, but I intend on my future husband also helping around the house. That's just how I am; I'm independent but I expect help with things. It's a partnership for a reason, to me.

I was appalled that Maryanne didn't let Leo cut his hair; I plan on letting my kids have their hair the way that they want. If I don't let them do anything to physically express themselves, like dress the way they want or have their hair the way they want, then when they're older they're going to be dying to do all these crazy things to themselves. I'd rather let them do what they want with their self-expression so that they know how they like things (their hair, clothing style) by the time they're young adults.

There's a lot more I could say, but I don't want this to be an essay on gender roles.


Wednesday, March 23, 2016

China Email Exchange

I have two pen pals. One is Cathy and the other is Seven. Cathy is very athletic, and her significant object piece was about her cell phone. I'm not so sure if Seven sent an object piece, but he may have written about antiques and a bracelet he designed.

Both are very friendly, and I enjoy emailing them quite a lot.

That's about it.

Thursday, March 17, 2016

Favorite Book Excerpt

My favorite book is The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky. It is a coming of age story written in letter form by Charlie; it begins as Charlie starts high school.

The excerpt that I chose is a poem written by an anonymous 15-year-old in the 1960s, two years before he killed himself. While Chbosky did not write it himself, it was the first time I read the poem, and I thought he wrote it until I did some research on it. 

Santa Claus and Little Sisters

"Once,

On yellow paper, with green lines, he wrote a poem,
And called it "Chops",
Because that was the name of his dog,
And that’s what it was all about.
And the teacher gave him an "A"
And a gold star,
And his mother hung it on the kitchen door,
And read it to all his aunts.
That was the year his sister was born,
With tiny toenails and no hair,
And Father Tracy took them to the zoo
And let them sing on the bus.
And his mother and father kissed a lot
And the girl around the corner sent him a Christmas card
Signed with a row of x's.
And his father always tucked him in at night,
And he was always there to do it.

Once,
On white paper, with blue lines, he wrote another poem.
And he called it "Autumn"
Because that was the name of a season,
And that’s what it was all about.
And the teacher gave him an "A"
And told him to write more clearly.
And his mother didn’t hang it on the kitchen door
Because the door
Had just been painted.
That was the year his sister got glasses,
With black frames and thick lenses.
And the kids told him why father and mother
Kissed a lot,
And that Father Tracy smoked cigars
And left butts on the pews,
And the girl around the block laughed
When he went to see Santa Claus at Macy’s.
And his father stopped tucking him in bed at night,
And got mad when he cried for him to.

Once,
On paper torn from his notebook, he wrote another poem,
And he called it "Question Marked Innocence",
Because that was the name of his grief
And that’s what it was all about.
And the professor gave him an "A"
And a strange and steady look.
And his mother never hung it on the door
Because he never let her see it.
That year he found his sister necking on the back porch
And his parents never kissed, or even smiled.
And he forgot how the end of the "Apostle’s Creed" went,
And Father Tracy died.
And the girl around the block wore too much make-up
That made him cough when he kissed her,
But he kissed her anyway.

Once,
At 3 a.m., he tucked himself in bed,
His father snoring soundly.
He tried another poem, on the back of a pack of matches,
And he called it "absolutely nothing"
Because that’s what it was all about.
And he gave himself an "A"
And a slash on each damp wrist,
And hung it on the bathroom door,
Because he couldn’t reach the kitchen."

I don't know why I like it, honestly. Maybe because it's morbid; maybe because I relate to it, in the way that the author of the poem wrote about how he was praised for his work and later on, things changed. He stopped getting validation from his parents to the point he didn't show anyone his work.

It also hits close to home because there were people in my life that I was close to and they committed suicide. 

That's all I have to say. 


Wednesday, February 24, 2016

Mermaid's Grotto

The Mermaid's Grotto was a quaint cafe on the coast of Mexico. It had a green underwater theme, located in a man-made cave (true to the "Grotto"). The food was of the seafood variety, and it wasn't half bad. The owner, though, was a beauty, and brought in more customers than the food or the atmosphere.

She had dark chestnut hair, curly and long. She had olive eyes, a sharp and straight nose, and a slightly too wide mouth. She had a weird look about her-- not in an unattractive way. She just had a face that you stared at and couldn't look away from. Regardless, she was beautiful, and she moved there two years ago, and has since become so close to the locals that she might as well be one, too.

She was always ready to try new things; she had an adventurous personality and radiated confidence, so when one of the locals invited her out to cliff diving, she readily accepted. They are both naive people in nature, but she more so than he. She knew the dangers better than he, and knew full well what they, she, was risking.

The local's name was Pascal, and he was a sweet boy, probably around 16 or 17. He had dark skin and dark hair, and had a tall and broad stature in general; he was an athlete with a puppy dog disposition.

They got to the cliff side, having met up at the currently closed Mermaid's Grotto. Pascal looked into her olive eyes with his own brown eyes.

"Are you ready?" He asked, offering her his hand.

"Of course," she replied, giving the offer of his hand a slight sneer. Without hesitation, they both turned and ran towards the edge of the cliff, as if racing.

Despite the salt in the water, Pascal opened his eyes to look at her. He gasped, inhaling the water, beginning to choke. She looked at him, startled and afraid. Pascal blacked out as she swam towards him, her mermaid tail glinting in the rays of sunlight peeking through the water.

Her name was Raisa.

Monday, February 22, 2016

Acrostic Poem: Briar Rose

Beating the beast isn't easy
Rather, most people need medication
If they get help
After a suicide attempt
Rigged, it almost seems, because you have to hit

Rock Bottom before getting help,
Or being taken seriously
Slits of the wrist, a slip of the hand is all it takes,
Even less, for some.


(image found at fineartamerica.com)



Haiku 3: Blueberry Buckle

Oh so blue I am
From your harsh words, comments, no
I won't stand for it,


(image found at losslessape.xyz)

Haiku 2: Blue Violet

"Violet" is her name
Blue is the color of her dress
An absolute blue.


(image found at www.designstack.co)

Haiku 1: Aphrodite

Like Aphrodite,
So fine, so lovely, help me
You are all I want.


(image found at sscindyss.deviantart.com)

Tuesday, February 9, 2016

Object Inspired Piece - Second Draft: The Bath Foam





The tub water ran, faucet shaking slightly as water gushed out. The water was a pale, murky yellow from the lemon velvet bath foam; bubbles were forming. A foot donning light pink toenails stepped into the tub, shortly joined by the other. The feet were attached to a pair of long, tan legs; the woman they belonged to was curvy and conventionally attractive, but enchanting all the same. She had stormy eyes-- grey with blue specks-- and she sported a beeline honey bob. These features got her numerous opportunities, until recently.
She disrobed herself-- quite literally, as she took off her bathrobe-- and lowered herself into the foam water. She closed the cap to the bottle of bath foam, glancing at the bathroom door.
Eleonora was her name. She was 20 years old, and lived in a crummy apartment with a crummy lock in Florida. She was going to school to get a teaching degree as a back up plan; hopefully she wouldn’t need to fall back on it, and her cheesy (and a dime-a-dozen) romance novellas would take off.
Truth be told, she wouldn’t have a career as an author, but she won’t have to be a teacher, either. And no, before you think of it, she won’t be getting an “M-R-S” degree.
She won’t make it to tomorrow, as a matter of fact.


Eleonora's day started as normally as it did every day; wake up, eat breakfast, brush her teeth, get ready for school, go to class, then go to work. All of it was normal to the point that the day breezed by for her, and before she knew it she was locking the doors to the library where she worked. It was 9 pm on a Thursday and the downtown streets were as quiet as his breathing.


The walk home was quiet. Nothing happened. She jangled her keys as she walked up the stairs to her apartment, deciding to bother with the lock. She jiggled the knob, stepped into her apartment, and locked the door as she shut it. She took off her coat, set her purse on the floor, and slipped off her shoes. She rolled her shoulders and she walked through her apartment, eventually undressing herself. She made her way to the bathroom, rummaging through her medicine cabinet to find the bath foam. She unscrewed the cap, poured some into the tub beneath the faucet, and turned it on. She left it to remove her makeup in the bathroom.


When she returned, the tub was full. She turned it off, stepped in, and laid in the tub. She glanced at the bathroom door, sighing. She reached out of her tub to turn off the radio, and cranked it. The shabby and thin walls were shaking with how loud it was; she couldn’t hear a thing. She closed her eyes and relaxed, almost as if she was melting into the tub.

She didn’t hear the loud bang as her front door was slammed open, the lock not proving to be effective. She didn’t hear the footsteps down the hall. She didn’t notice the bathroom door opening. She did, however, notice when a pair of calloused hands wrapped around her neck and choked the life out of her. Her lifeless body sunk deeper into the tub as the man stood, blankly staring into her lifeless eyes.

It was her fault, really.
(565 words)

Tuesday, January 26, 2016

7 Things About Me

I have nine nieces and nephews.
I have five older sisters.
Charlotte, my niece, is the apple of my eye.
I am a romantic, through and through.
I am an emotional person.
I miss my uncle "Two Gun" Larry.
My father, from whom I get my humor, got a Ph.D in being a Smart Aleck.

Friday, January 15, 2016

"I Am... Caitlyn... Not Jenner."

I am my love for music,
My love for Charlotte.

I am my love for romance,
And my uncertainty to take the plunge.


I am my love for coffee,
But my hate for the after taste.

I am the times I've been sweet,
And the times I've been vile.

I am my home schooling,
And my social awkwardness.

I am my hope to have more love
For the world than hate.



I am my experiences,
And the life lessons offered by my family.

I am my avoidance of confrontation,
And I am my complete understanding of my feelings.

I am my confidence, my strengths!
And, unfortunately, I am also my doubts.

I am the acceptance of others,
But not of myself.